Day one

Ok, so...  I have to admit, I'm not exactly happy with myself as I am.  I mean, not that I hate myself or anything, I'm just not the kind of person I'd like to be.

So, it's time for a little experiment!

This is day one of a thirty one day period where I am simply going to be the person I want to be.

Now, not saying I'm going to be a terrible person whenever I want...  Nononononono!  If you know me at all, you know I really would never want to be that person.  Here's a little preview of who I want to be:

Someone who spends regular time alone with God, reading and listening to Him.
Someone who takes good care of what she has (is a little tidier person than I am right now!)
Someone who takes good care of her body (eats better than I do, regularly exercises, etc...)
Someone who is punctual (I can be, but it varies)
Someone who regularly practices her bassoon!  ;-)
Someone who listens more and hears with her heart


In short, someone who does not allow her laziness or her "I just don't feel like it" attitude get in the way of what needs to be done.  I'm tired of them getting the better of me.  I want to overcome those things, and the best way I can think of to do this, is to make the things I listed above into habits.

I'm an extremely habitual person.  You can almost bet that you'll know what I'll do in a day.  Since I know this about myself, I'm going to use it as a weapon.

It varies according to the "experts" as to how long it takes to form a habit that is subconscious.  The number that's popped up a lot in my reading is somewhere between 21 to 30 days.  That's why the 31 day experiment.


You may think it strange, that a person can't change habits overnight.  And it's true!  I once saw a book entitled "Only Nuns Change Habits Overnight."  But, this is more than just changing habits.  This is me battling my negative emotions.  This is me vs. every voice in my head that says I can't do these things.


However


I know that the things on my list are honoring to God.  Jesus overcame death and the grave in His power, and has given me the power to overcome what keeps me from Him.  He has already won the battle, I just have to do my part and stand firm.  Does that sound kinda funny in terms of things like punctuality?  Yeah, maybe, but I feel like He's asking me to do this.  And I'm doing it.  Not because I think He'll love me more, but because this is who I want to be.  This is the dream He's given me, and, really, nothing but myself is preventing me from being that person!


This experiment is also for another blog that I write for.  It's called Beyond the Song.  I wrote a blog about overcoming the things in our lives that defeat us on a daily basis.  By changing these things in my life, I'm taking away any ammo that Satan may have in my life in that area by doing what I can about it.  That way, he will have to find something else to come after.  I'd call it "sealing the breaches in the wall."  If you want to know about that one, you can ask :-)



Lastly, on each day of the experiment, I'm also going to remind myself of one aspect of who I am in Christ.  :-)  I'm excited about that one.  I've been feeling a little lost lately, and I'm wondering if it's not because it's not ingrained in me as to who I am in Jesus.  So, here's one part of who I am, for those of you who don't know  :-)


2 Corinthians  5:17  Therefore if anyone is in Christ he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold all things have become new.

I am a new creation.  The old me has passed away and is dead.  This is the new me.  :-)